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Things and things and things

2009-11-10T01:16:08Z

hi lj! it's good to see you and update you today! a small update about life and work and stuff that go in between :)

a) work's picked up again and the slump we suffered mid-year is now gone and replaced with a lot of deadlines and travel. DENR bought our software and it's up to the teams to go to the provinces and train LGU users. this is so exciting and i think they are considering me to accompany some of the training teams. my organizational skills do come in handy sometimes!

b) went to makati medical center yesterday and sat in for a co-worker. the meeting is about interface and is pretty much a nifty but tedious topic for developers. anyway. it was tiring, mostly because it took a while and i had absolutely no idea how far they've gone in their production. i hate passing through mmc's backdoor. the chemical smells are horrendous.

c) had major burnout last night and i told friends i was going to NAP but ended up sleeping in an epic snorefest way. i slept around 845 and wok up at 430 in the morning. some nap, huh? hopefully i can stay awake longer tonight. but then again i keep yawning and yawning some more as i type this!

d) my fic for the 80/S community is slowly getting done. i never thought it would be this difficult to write them. i think it's because i am conflicted and i like 80/27 too, i have to moderate their interactions and stuff :3 i want it to write itself. and sakura addiction has come and gone - and i came up with what hm ONE contribution for it blahaha! oh well, when inspiration does not strike...then it doesn't XD

e) sent out emails today for our early xmas meet-up. GUYS please read your emails and please pass on the message to other famiglia. my bugging has just begun!!

f) my eye is once again infected. i really need to see a specialist why it's ALWAYS this eye and why we can't seem to find a solution to this problem. bad timing too because i'm writing an installation manual and haha it's a pain having one eye bandaged.

h) ate a lot of meat yesterday. BAGNET. BAGNET. oh my god. then i felt sick afterward. will eat veggies today and try to remember that i am not as young as i used to be and consuming that much unhealthy stuff will kill me in my sleep. i think i was channeling ICEPICK because he loves meat. a lot of it! for those who do not know ICEPICK is a character i own/made over at a chat-place called TinierMe. he's on mini-hiatus at the moment - anyway this is what he looks like. a manly man!

for the yuletides id like to write fic for him and hoodlum and .44 magnum and balisong - you know just background/backstory drabbles of where they came from and who they are! i will one day make a crossover with our characters from stationslash LOL. /ded/ so many plans, agatha. so many. buh.

i) a lovely person named rinnakins made a miharu + yoite fanmade EP over at the nabari no ou community. it made me CRY. it was such a subtle and heartwarming collection. i loved it, from start to finish. check her post out: here! leave a comment if you are taking!

FARSIDE

2009-11-04T07:50:25Z

first off, because i can...

SUGAAHCUBE HIIII! welcome to my journal XD

it's been a series of strange days for me. it all started last saturday when i thought i was being haunted. it was cold where i live so i was wearing a sweater and i was in the home office chatting with amanda. anyway, so i felt something tap my arm, then again my head and then again my other shoulder. i was getting afraid so i turned on the lights and WTF OMG it was a FROG. something i am more afraid of than snakes or lizards! I SCREAMED and people in the house thought we were being robbed =\ sorry i couldn't help it. they caught the darn thing and put it outside. i have no idea how it got in and i really don't want to know. i just wanted it out! out! out! and so my odd days followed. i couldn't sleep after that. this is how much i fear frogs. my period came back with a vengeance too @_@ my mother told me to start thinking right because obviously this was all psychological. i agree with her, tbh. so tonight i will force myself to sleep no matter what!

>> i finished a fic for 6918 and it's called : a train straight to okinawa. i realize now that using "straight" when referring to 6918/1869 was a grave error on my part >3

*tsuntsun is allowed. derabopping is allowed. words for the day. thanks pam, hush XD

I get a thousand hugs from 10 million lighting bugs

2009-10-28T02:18:05Z

* i didn't get to sleep very well last night, mostly because of work-stress and the fact that my period's coming up so i'm mostly like experiencing hormonal implosion. i also, seem to have developed a fondness for menthol products. the shampoo, the soap and even the deodorant needs to be mentholated. i mean...really don't get it myself XD

* i've been reading up on "kaddish" the 1995 album by the multimedia group called "towering inferno" it's an epic album that goes on for a full 75 minutes. there's also a dvd i think. and they didn't hire a producer or editor so it's mostly amazing true blue indie stuff :P a used album is selling for $2 a pop over at amazon, so that's not bad at all.

* top chef tonight...i wonder who will be eliminated?? not stefan! please! i think he is my favorite now >E

* watched the first two episodes of the winter sonata anime. i'm happy with it, amused that the story's been pretty much faithful to the drama which made the series popular to begin with. the music is the same (much to my mother's delight) and it's also dubbed in korean. subbed in japanese. yujin, the protagonist is SO spot on, down to the little gestures that the actress in the drama does. i love it. it's cute. it's not something i'm excited about following each week, but i'd like to watch it whe i have free time. i cannot wait for the mega-drama crying bits.

(sharona1x2, were you able to watch it? happy? sad? mad? XD)

* and someone awesome from the flist *cough* sage *cough* posted up a LOT of 6918/1869 Djs and yeah. i can live on that for a year and a half. thank you for sharing. kaze, you are an 1869/6918 santa. brb dling between editing and writing work stuffs.

Of late eggs benedict and cemeteries

2009-10-26T01:18:20Z

first of all: THANK YOU TO ALL THE LOVELY PEOPLE WHO LEFT MESSAGES, PLURKED, TEXTED AND FACEBOOKED THEIR GREETINGS. thank you so much guys. my heart is full and grand and happy even if i am now officially an Obasan/Ossan creature! but happily so. (kazehaya is ikemen who is controlled by obasan! watttt?!) XD

i really didn't want anyone to remember my birthday to be honest. i felt like 32 is such a weird number and that i'm really so far away from my desired 18-forever-dream, lol. but people remembered anyway. especially amanda who had given my present two days before the actual day which really set the mood for my weekend. i was simply happy. and that's really all one can wish for on their birthday, right?

my weekend started out with my mom's party (for her close friends) a kind of gossipfest-slash-goodcause-slash-we're doing the world some good celebration. my aunt was in charge of the pasta, apple pie and coolers. i got to eat some while she was cooking. go me! my mom's antipasto plate was a winner though. though i am not much of a cold-cuts fan she was able to put together some pretty hefty plates that really kind of 'made sense' trust me pieces of meat on a plate when arranged properly make sense! then i went with my aunt to the antique shop where she bought this bed with an awesome head-board! i kind of want a new bed now. come dinner time we had pasta, and apple pie a la mode. leftovers from my mom's party. amanda was off to halloween camp so i just played at tinierme and encouraged kimmy's character to go forth and be a seme until we both got sleepy and signed out XD it was also, really the first night i got to hang out with clear-san's posse and he's such a lady/guy-killer. that was truly fun guys. i'm trying not to call myself an addict but the little tiny costumes and smileys are just irresistible =D

the next day we went to visit my grandparents' grave at holy cross in novaliches. and there was really some family bonding time. weird right? at a cemetery? i guess it kind of reminds all of us that things could end at any time. as for me,i was just glad to be able to visit since i never have time to visit on other days. after that it was off to a hearty breakfast somewhere in st.francis square in ortigas. the service was pretty much horrendous but i felt lenient, so even if my eggs benedict was late and dry and cold...i just didn't complain. but i did answer their survey form HONESTLY :D after breakfast, we all dispersed and mom and i stayed home and i think i slept chunks of the day away.

BUT around 11 at night...my mom shook me awake and her voice sounded GARRR, i was like WHAT?! and she said i had a delivery. at 11 in the evening?? so i got up and rubbed my eyes and still in my PJs went out to garage to find this lady in uniform holding out a bouquet of flowers for me. she said: "delivery for miss agatha, from miss amanda" although i was mostly in shock, i was also one happy girl, i felt happy tears in my eyes and was speechless for the night. i think my mom tipped the delivery woman or something...i just wasn't paying attention anymore.

amanda, the bouquet had carnations in it. pink ones. my favorite. thank you ^_^♥

so, really that's how my birthday ended. with a bouquet of flowers from my most important person XD it's not romantic right?? hurhur!! *rolls around in happiness*

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so there's the up and coming HK trip that amanda and i have been planning since forever. it's my first trip to HK without anyone with me so i am excited. but then my mom comes barging in to my room and tells me she wants to go XD i mean the whole point is to spend some quiet time with my girlfriend. right? but eventually i convinced my mom to stay behind.

then! my aunt came up with all these horror stories about women being detained and abused just because they are holding Filipino passports and traveling alone. apparently not a good combination. so now my mom wants me to take a whole entourage of people. something i told her was not necessary. after a lot of pacifying and talking and watching cheesy movies...

i think she's finally calmed down and won't be bugging me about it anymore. i am a bit wary, though. i'm taking precautions and stuff because this is my first ever trip unescorted and a trip i paid for all on my own. so i want it to be a nice experience :)

there has been a recent avalanche of rebocomm fsts and while i prefer the old/veteran/seasoned fst makers over these new guys. i do admit that some songs are worth discovering and listening to. i was talking to pam and eri over at plurk about it as well. while i always thought fst-making was a really nice fan contribution to a fandom...having it as a 'bandwagon' now can be very irritating. especially when some fst-makers make it a point to add a lectre about how one's particular technique is THE proper way to make an fst. i have an issue with that because i am a genre-purist when it comes to music. it means i stick to particular genre and the sub-genres it gives birth to as the years go by. i do not dare swing and dabble in other genres out of...first and foremost respect and then comes choice: that's my stand as an audiophile.

an fst isn't rocket science to begin with. an fst is picking out songs that resonate with you when you are working on something related to a character, a series or a storyline. an fst is putting together a collection that's cohesive enough to give others a clear picture of what pairing or character you are doing the fst for. that's it. the mood, the depth follows right after one has established that. which is really WHY i prefer the seasoned and old-timers because i get what they are doing. their humility doesn't hide the fact that they have good taste in music.

though in the end - i think for the three of us - our love for music overrides everything else and we ended up downloading the songs that were worth listening to. personally, i just could not ignore jethro tull's "aqualung" and that song was SO worth the dl.

The secret ingredient

2009-10-21T00:31:12Z

i'm still waking up despite having showered at 530 in the morning. work requires me to finish a write up regarding the web interface for some software that we're developing for a government agency. it's really not that exciting and i am working with very little material so it's really not that easy. but what can you do, right? you just have to roll with the punches and say it's fine. a friend of mine had mentioned how nice it seemed to be working from home. i told her it was a shitty deal because there's no work-clock to tell you to stop working. the only upside to it is you get to pad around the house in pajamas and fuzzy slippers all day: like a mental patient XD

i'm not going to order in today.

like iron chef, i have my not-so secret ingredient! i worked on this for a bout 45 minutes. it's a little twist on stir-fried shrimp/deconstructed sinigang. instead of using butter and spinach, i used water cabbage and vegetable oil. i made the sauce out of fish sauce and tamarind base for the stock. it turned out pretty well. something i can eat a lot of rice with, definitely. now, if only i can buy green mangoes to make ensalada then it'd be a perfect lunch.

DEEP OF THE OCEAN: 80/S Fansoundtrack

*because i wanted to contribute something to the 80/S community, i made a mini FST for the pair. most of the songs are the ones i listen to when i am writing (trying to finish) the fic i had started for them a while ago, the same fic that i hope to finish before the weekend rolls in *~*

SIDE A:
1) Angel by Massive Attack
2) High Life by Mono
3) Stranded by Plumb
4) Lover I Don't Have To Love by Bright Eyes
5) Breathe by Telepopmusik
Download: CLICK ME!!

SIDE B:
1) Center Of The Sun by Conjure One
2) Home and Dry by The Pet Shop Boys
3) Momentum by Vienna Teng
4) Where Do I Begin? by Chemical Brothers (w/Beth Orton)
5) Once In A Lifetime by Wolsheim (single version)
Download: CLICK ME!!

*leave a comment if you wish.

Suddenly it's raining

2009-10-14T06:42:22Z

i was trying to write my fic for sakura addiction week, sadly its not working and it'll have to wait another day for it to get finished. i wonder if people are getting sick of my AUs for mukuro and hibari. i don't even know it writing AUs all the time is creativity or just plain laziness of my part. i'm excited. i want to see SOMETHING happen for my ship. the anthology for them never happened and that was one sad disappointment. but this time the future looks bright and nice. thanks kyraensui and welcome to the journal :D♥

izkariote posted a number of fsts last week and i downloaded two of them. i always love it when i learn about new artists or bands. i admit i have an ego when it comes to the music i listen too so it makes me happy when i want to hear something over and over. love a LOT of them pam, esp: doves, tangerine submarine, the presets, maps and css. OF COURSE, it was a pleasure to see royskopp and wolsheim on your list! my player's been on overtime duty since the weekend (: SO, thank you, thank you for sharing great music! (now i will go hunt for that xanxus/squalo fst you made some time ago and go dl it too)

random music upload: bright eyes

-- a poetic retelling of an unfortunate seduction
-- driving fast through a big city at night
-- lover i don't have to love
-- the calendar hung itself

download: CLICK ME!!!

i got the chance to watch kimi no todoke last week. i remember talking with some friends about kazehaya-kun (why am i calling him 'kun'?!?!) and i personally find him endearing and adorable. he reminds me of dino or yamamoto. more of yamamoto, actually. and i even saw caelestin plurk about it even before i did! so it's one series to watch for the time being. it's going to air 12 episodes for this season. i like the main character too. she reminds me of that woman in XXX Holic, i'm not a CLAMP fan so i don't know her name ToT still i think they're pretty.

wanted to rant about the naruto shippuuden manga for some weeks now but i keep holding back because I KNOW kishimoto-sensei is better than what he's been putting out for the past few months. I KNOW because i've been following this series for years and years and i'm not about o give it up just yet...it's just that i need break from all the lulziness and the fact that sasuke is crying blood, omg, omg -__-;; for the first time in all the years i've been following naruto i just wish that someone put sasuke out of his vindictive misery. it's frustrating like running your fingernails onto a chalkboard. i love his character no matter what. even more than i adore itachi's character...but the main plot's gotten lost somewhere and somehow his angst and anger just isn't justified anymore and he comes off rather bleak like a grey cloud on a sunny day. and somehow the past few chapters have made naruto look stupid. like really stupid. in the past naruto's always been dumb when it comes to certain things but not at all stupid. i guess love does that to you >D no i'm not fangirling...i'm bereaved! really! i am!

watched glee last night and i cannot believe i sat through a musical. HONEST! i don't really like musicals but i was able to just sit there and even sing - i'll never refuse a Heart or Queen song anyway :D next tuesday ulit!

With your smart mouth and killer hands...

2009-10-08T06:38:39Z

i had the MOST surreal night last night - there was a blackout that affected rizal and nearby cities. because of this traffic was shitty and oh so unbelievable. i stood in line for almost three hours just to get a ride home. now, i knew something was wrong when i got off the bus and saw that the line for antipolo was ridiculously spilling out of the parking lot. it never ever gets that long. so i just thought that a lot of people moved uphill because of the floods and now there are more residents than ever before. WRONG. the fx units just had a rough time travelling because there were no traffic lights and the traffic aids blended perfectly with the night. no offense guys, i think they were heroic working overtime. it just felt useless because people just did what they wanted especially traversing valle verde onto C5. okay so standing inline proved to me that my stamina's pretty good. my feet hurt like hell even now but i wasn't able to feel it then because of adrenaline and i just couldn't believe it. i shared my umbrella with a lady that irresponsibly didn't bring an umbrella even if she had a toddler with her. that was my good deed for the night. as the line moved you could see the amount of trash people leave behind just by eating their snacks. plastic cups, styro containers and straws littered the ground. it was infuriating and disappointing. as if people had already forgotten that we've suffered a great flood just a week before. though that flood was caused 50% natural, 10% human idiocy, 40% is actually due to our irresponsible ways of disposing garbage. i know that megamall has their own cleaning crew and they will clean...it just wouldn't hurt to see SOME INITIATIVE. like a person can volnteer a big plastic bag where they can all collect that trash and one person can actually WALK to throw it in the trash can. seeing litter like that on the ground reflects badly on what we're like. i started picking some of the trash i can reach and put it in a plastic bag i had, found funny that people look at me like im a treehugger or something or a bag lady in the streets. shrug. i can only do so much.

when the fx unit finally came and we were able to load up it took us another two hours to get to antipolo proper. when i got to our "exclusive" subdivision i almost laughed seeing our loyal and big-hearted security guard manning his spot with a tiny flashlight. and the scene behind him was absolute BLACK. dear homeowners association, the guard needs a solar-charging lamp, maybe two. or we need a generator to light up even our subdivision name x_x buti pa ang palmera homes. men. ang liwanag!

when i got home it was pitch black too, save some candles and lamps we had charged and stored for emergencies (parma scare). i showered and was ready to just really plop in bed...but like a cheesy movie i had a mini-breakdown in the shower. it just weighs you down...this kind of situation. it makes you think why life is like this and that and then you get to start worrying about things that you have conquered long ago. after the shower though i was calm and just plain sleepy. thank you to my current loves - kings of leon - for the pretty pretty music i listened to in the dark. it was very nice. falling asleep to "red light morning" was a little weird though! power was restored around 3am and i slept in until 5 which was great because i had to report to work early (but not that early). the prototype is still broken and giving me all the error messages that i don't want to see but the main thing is that they're fixing it so i can finally go on and proceed with the paper work and documentation needed for the software.

despite the bad/surreal/twilight zone experience i had a fun time at Mall of Asia with simply_kim and bluecircles. i was finally able to meet kimmy's BFFs - SEL and MAU. they were awesome and fun loving. gayz and i never felt out of place or out of the loop. mau is awesome, i can see why she and kimmy are best friends! i think the concept of having a best friend is clearer to me now XD gayz and i also shared a loong bus ride going back to ortigas and (for gayz) cubao. we talked about our dogs and books and just super general, fun nonsense. i always have a great time talking to gayz! but it has to be said that there was no nina around :( sadness!

AND the best thing out of all this is that i'm getting almost a weeks worth of vacation time this december. im going to hong kong for some rest and relaxation. oh wait! first i have to buy my ticket XD! i will. i will XD

* wishing clockworkwings well. typhoon melor is over at Nippon and creating trouble there :( i hope it passes fast. stay safe. do not fall into the river. you hear me!!?!

I want it...like a substitute

2009-10-07T02:26:40Z

i'm currently downloading songs c/o pam and i cannot wait to listen, i only hope that the process goes faster >E slow connection. you lose, office, you lose! it's not even hal of the day and i am already stressed as hell. i don't mean to be mean but sometimes the incompetence of other people does affect one's overall performance (as part of the workforce) for the day. see, our driver was late reporting for work so getting to the terminal from our village was delayed by a good thirty minutes. precious time that helps me avoid long lines and traffic. but he apologized as son as he saw me, so how could i stay mad? getting to makati took so long but it's marvelous that even if i was late, i was still the first one here XD i will not relinquish my lady guard dreams!

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i'm meeting simply_kim and her BFFs today! we'll be having late lunch at MoA and i'm also planning to get "amrita" by banana yoshimoto. i'm a little nervous, as i always am meeting new people. sometimes i even act like a jackass. but one day i will mature. like when i am fifty. that's not a long ways to go!

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my journal has a new layout and profile page. i am in fangirl mode so i just had to. kings of leon and train's been a constant in my playlist for a week now. i think i plurked about this - but the voice for kings of leon reminds me of xanxus. for some reason he does. yes. i just think that if xanxus sang for aband he'd have a raw and soulful voice - kind of projecting a certain amount of pain he's lived through or something >E i should be worried that everything just has to comeback to khreborn /falls.

some songs to check out: notion || use somebody || true love way || be somebody || closer

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you know you've had too much KHR...#1 -- when you feel like you can never have too much KHR.

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excited!! my birthda's just around the corner. we must all meet up and eat out. i want to celebrate my 32nd year of life on this planet!

Shut up, like oh my god

2009-10-01T00:47:24Z

planned dinner with my mom tonight. she said that it would be a nice time to go out before the next typhoon hits and we get rained in our house once more. i was thinking that if this next typhoon carries stron winds then we might not be so lucky. but i hope for the best!

arrived in makati business district around 630 in the morning after an hour's trip from antipolo - which means i was up by 4, again! i barely had rest but i feel energized today. maybe its because i wasn't so stressed out last night and had some laughs over at plurk, my friends are funny. period. even in times like these, they are funny.

so, coming from work last night my ride passed by the ever gotesco mall in cainta, rizal. the place was depressing and a mess. there was so much traffic there that we were stuck for a good ten minutes so the observation's pretty much accurate on my part. my fellow Filipinos...we should really learn to keep our surroundings clean. for our own sake. let's do our part. let us learn to throw our garbage properly. the people (waiting for relief goods) there at ever gotesco who were done eating the meals given to them simply tossed the containers on the ground >( there were also trucks of Filipino military going to certain places in pasig city and their huge trucks were the ones causing traffic XD// but i salute you guys! thanks for the effort!

health-wise, i am getting better too! no more sniffles, just bothersome coughing. but my doctor said that i don't need antibiotics so i'm happy about that. i'm just annoyed that as soon as i wake up, i start coughing. no poise, man. i freak popo out sometimes with the coughing.

random pic: shiromaru enjoying some sunlight!

top chef season 5 has begun! i have instant favorites: team rainbow - comprised of two queens and a really cute lesbian with awesome tattoos *_* too bad that one of the pretty ga boys got eliminated in the first episode. i don't like that guy from finland who thinks everybody who is not him -- is pretty much stupid. because that notion in itself is STUPID. but he's showing so much promise that you really can see why he's being such an ass to the others.

traffic was so bad it took me longer than usual to get home. i love my mother, though, she had some pasta in the oven waiting for me. i think i ate half of what was in the casserole dish *burp*

I'll follow the sun

2009-09-29T08:26:23Z

before anything else...

WHERE AND HOW TO DONATE FOOD AND OTHER RELIEF GOODS FOR TYPHOON ONDOY/KETSANA VICTIMS || EVERY LITTLE BIT COUNTS.

and just a reminder: if you're going to help. then help - with sincerity and a bit kindness. don't bitch/moan/insult/complain because no one is forcing you to do so. the term state of calamity does not equal the shangri-la or the peninsula tokyo. fyi. the amount of superioty and detachment from the most unlikely people in my flist is certainly news to me. oh well, live and learn.

i finally feel like the most unwanted weekend of my life has passed. and that is surely an understatement coming from someone like me. and yet i feel more afraid to go out into the real world, more so than my countrymen/friends/family who had to go through such a life changing experience. see, last weekend (starting the eve of friday 9-25-09) manila and nearby provinces (including my hometown for some 13 years now, rizal) was hot by a storm. the storm had a pretty cute and unassuming local name. ondoy, he was called. a name you give your youngest or favorite child. a pinoy petname you give to a handsome fellow. it was such an unassuming name that no one thought it was going to carry with it a lethal amount of rainfall that surpassed that of hurricane katrina.

saturday morning, my mom had classes but she called her class rep to tell him that it was postponed for next week at her discretion. and it turned out to be a right move for her, i was running a fever since friday so despite the rains i was home before it got really bad. anyway, around lunchtime, my mom kept bugging me about how the rain "never really lets up" there was no pause to the downpour. something that irked me because i was already online reading bbgun's feeds on plurk.

i was trying not to feel nervous and think nothing of it, telling myself that close to 20 typhoons hit my country each year. we'll surely breeze past this one. of course, as it turned out, i was very wrong. i had heard on ANC that a number of dams and water reservoirs were releasing water because they were at their limit - more feeds came in that water was rising at a completely alarming rate. i looked at my mother, she looked at me and i said the only things i could say at that time: "it's not funny anymore".

it's true what they say, when nature strikes back, you feel puny and irrelevant. you feel like a speck of dust in the gobi. i was still cracking jokes on plurk on saturday morning about how rainbowbrite could be dino and stormy could be gokudera. in retrospect, i regret messing around. so when i told my mom that it wasn't funny anymore, i had meant really, that th situation scared me a whole lot. and i was beginning to realize that my friends and family (who live in lower rizal area) were in really real danger.

we lost power a couple of times after that- we lost internet and cable for the rest of the weekend. it was kind of ominous, like how lights flicker in a scene of a horror movie. my mom decided that we should stay home. we live in the hills of antipolo fashioned from solid stone, a rare place since antipolo has a lot of clay area. as the rain continued, we started getting texts and news from the AM radio about how floods were engulfing a lot of areas, turning NCR and other affected cities/towns into a virtual sea. flooding is nothing foreign here. i tell you, my dad used to carry me from my school bus to the front door of our old house because of the floods. but i've never encountered nor heard of a flood that was 12 feet high happen in my turf. so i was left in a state of disbelief.

saturday evening was hell. i couldn't sleep though i was running a fever worried for people that i could not help at all even if i wanted to. come sunday morning, i was up at first light and it was then that we learned just how close this typhoon really hit us: aside from friends affected my cousin was trapped in the second floor or their house (for days after we learned of it) traumatized right now, three of my college professors lost their houses and (news coming from my mom's friends) our normal route to work was unrecognizable. but at the end of it - all my loved ones were all accounted for. i feel lucky that we were spared from the brunt of this ordeal. though, it has affected my loved ones too, so it's hard not to be contemplative about it. after you say thanks to the higher power, you look inside yourself and go, well there must be a reason you're still here. so go do something. i'm working on that.

there was so much sun this morning and popo was playing and was being more lively. it made me happy. my dog was so depressed when he ran out of dog food and it took us a day and half to even get new supplies XD this has taught me to stock up on things! and i missed shadows, you know. during the storm everything was dim and dark and melted into one indigo shade. popo's playing shadow was a delight to see. and even if - i am still running a fever or i managed to hurt myself seven ways to sunday just by staying home (i admit i am a klutz). i know that i've got to look at popo as an example too. make myself better, do my work well, stop moping/bitching, if you want to help do it efficiently/quietly.

make someone's life better by being in it. everyday is a new day after all, and you live through the bad things. that's how Pinoys do it. that, and with a huge smile on their face (:

The Owl City Dreamworld

2009-09-23T01:25:13Z

atmosphere. dreamscapes. odd sleeping habits. skylines. the open air. love. >> these are but a few of the recurring themes that owl city uses in his songs. put against an electronica background and he's able to create something magical with each piece. one would think that it would get boring after a while but it doesn't; where lighthouse family uses landscapes as their foundation - owl city uses dreams and i have this theory that he also writes in a state of dreaming. of course, that is always up for debate. it's hard to tell, but he did say in his myspace account that he has trouble sleeping. also, it's not a healthy comparison putting lighthouse family side by side with owl city. LHF has always had this earthy and feet-on-the-ground approach to music, producing some of the classiest tunes ever to grace pop. and then you have OC whose music never seem to touch the ground and uses the sound variants of your portable casio and transforms it into real genius with his work. the common denominator is the quality of work and the emotions that they evoke. yes, i will be first to admit that it gets to that cheesy point - but it can be forgiven. we've not yet crossed the aqua and ace of base threshold just yet. thank you. i love how owl city is always telling a story through the accompaniments in his songs. i like how each drum beat or piano key emphasizes and resonates with his chosen subject matter. it's really precious. though a part of me does not want him to be a super famous artist, i do believe that he deserves to be just that. owl city's music should be heard by everyone and maybe be the voice of all the insomniacs and narcoleptics in the world and people with normal sleeping habits in the world. he perpetrates the positive side of living, loving, failing... his vision reminds me of kokia who turns tragedy into something you'd want to hold on to - just because its your experience.

i have links to owl city's music here. songs that i am confident in recommeding! all links go back to youtube.

- Fireflies
- Designer Skyline
- On The Wing
- Meteor Shower
- Fuzzy Blue Lights
- If My Heart Was A House
- Vanilla Twilight

i wanted to do a camera obscura or cocteau twins write up but i guess that can wait. so much stuff to do. i really want to cry 8D

i am FINALLY done! finished with this collection of stories from Haruki Murakami! to be honest, it was like listening to a double album of one great artist. like smashing pumpkins' "mellon collie and the infinite sadness" just because i believe that he is at his best when he drives to the heart of the subject matter and speaks his mind in few words. i was not expecting much. i was so captivated by "kafka on the shore" that i thought everything else that came from him would mean little or incomparable to the novel. that was my mistake and now i am all the wiser for it. sorry (tao lang).

i liked how some stories seemed to share a particular connection, a recurring theme or just a particular hint (here and there) that the reader can piece together and end up with some half-solved puzzle. the stories i enjoyed the most were: perfect day for kangaroos, firefly, the iceman, man-eating cats, airplane, hanalei bay, where i'm likely to find it and of course my favorite of them all -- chance traveler. those stories in particular are sad and desolate but there is also something rejuvinating about them -- the kind of feeling that leaves you nodding and thinking about life in general and how lucky we all are that we're here. mistakes/downfalls and all. just because.

there's this one line in "firefly" that i really like.

i waited forever...

i don't even know why i like that line so much, it's not like it should mean something to me. though i guess some of us do spend a big part of our lives waiting for something or someone - to come, to change, to vanish, to appear...and it's what makes life both annoying and interesting. i don't know. bleh.

Popo the emo

2009-09-23T00:57:10Z

in one of our plurk conversations dreamlessness mentioned that my dog popo takes after me when it comes to the emo. i don't think i am that emooo XD but i do have my moments. so here look at this photo that i took of my dog on a really lazy sunday afternoon :P

9 FSTs and counting...

2009-06-23T17:33:20Z

done, done, done! i have been meaning to summarize everything and put it all in perspective so that i don't feel like such a scatterbrain all the effin' time. this is for posterity's sake and just putting all these things in one place. i hope that by doing so it'll be easier, and i will be able to just go back to this post and add to it whenever i feel like making a compilation.

note: all songs are free for the taking, doesn't matter if you like the compilation it belongs to or not. when it comes to songs i always take it as a free-for-all thing so feel FREE to use them for your own poison! leaving a message/comment or two would be nice. and also, if there are any broken links tell me, in a nice way of course, don't make me want to break your neck by being rude =_=

BOMBS AWAY: D/59 FANSOUNDTRACK 10-10-09

*this fst is a pretty selfish project. i ship d/59 as hard as i ship s/80 and d/s so i thought of making a playlist that catered to such an addiction! it was not difficult to make. despite gokudera's angst the songs i picked out are pretty upbeat. i guess that's the dino factor right there. feel free to take the songs FOR YOUR OWN POISON :D enjoy!

SIDE A:
[1] The Listening by Lights
[2] Fireflies by Owl City
[3] Inner Smile by Texas
[4] 500 Miles by The Proclaimers
[5] Never Let You Go by Third Eye Blind
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Side B:
[1] Books Written For Girls by Camera Obscura
[2] Beautiful Things Can Come From The Dark by Azure Ray
[3] If My Heart Was A House by Owl City
[4] Say Something by James
[5] Joyride by Roxette
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*Leave a comment if you like. Thank you!

THE ARCHITECT: A XANXUS FST 10-10-09

*i just had to do something for him because lately he's been in my thoughts. i have this silly urge to write fanfic for him, so i guess i built the playlist for inspiration. he's a pretty awesome guy. i liked what he said when he "fought" jill, too. so he is a very complex character. i like the many sides he keeps tightly hidden under his devil may care attitude >_>!

SIDE A:
[1] Here I Dreamt I Was An Architect - The Decemberists
[2] Hard To Handle by The Black Crowes
[3] We Need A War by Fischerspooner
[4] I Feel So by Box Car Racer
[5] Porcelain by Moby
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Side B:
[1] Bullet With Butterfly Wings by Smashing Pumpkins
[2] Destroy Everything You Touch by Ladytron
[3] Out of Control by The Chemical Brothers
[4] Be Somebody by Kings of Leon
[5] Bad by U2 [Rattle and Hum Vr]
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*Leave a comment if you like. Thank you!

DINO AND SQUALO: CONFUSION MIX [10-10-09]

*OMG. another DS fst. i know. i know. but i had accumulated a number of songs that reminded me of them. i just wanted to share. i call this the confusion mix because of some roleplay influence. i am not going to mention the details anymore - but imagine this: dino's going to want more. no matter what :D

SIDE A:
[1] Standing Outside A Broken Phonebooth... By Primitive Radio Gods
[2] Protection (angel dust mix) by Massive Attack (w/Tracy Thorn)
[3] Let's Get Out Of This Country by Camera Obscura
[4] Why Should I Cry For You? by Sting
[5] I Want You by Kings Of Leon
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Side B:
[1] Walls by Tom Petty
[2] Sleep by Azure Ray
[3] Waiting In Vain by Annie Lennox
[4] I'm Waking Up To Us by Belle and Sebastian
[5] No Ordinary Morning by Chicane (radio edit)
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*Leave a comment if you like. Thank you!

REMIX: 001-DINO/SQUALO-FST

*I thought that my first compilation for this pairing was not enough ^_^; I was going thrugh more folders and I found even more songs that fits them as individuals involved in this predicament (or mostly just each other). I enjoyed looking for songs and I am pretty sure that I'll add more in the near future. No, I'm not crazy about them...of course not...am I?! XD And to desertidal I hope you find more stuff you like and enjoy!

D-SIDE:
[1] When We Are Together by Texas
[2] Laid by James [No Edit]
[3] Dyslexic Heart by Paul Westerberg
[4] White Flag by Dido
[5] London Rain by Heather Nova
[6] Never Say Never by The Fray
[7] The Incidentals by Alisha's Attic

S-SIDE:
[1] Criminal by Fiona Apple
[2] So Cruel by U2
[3] Got You Where I Want You by The Flys
[4] Beauty On The Fire by Natalie Imbruglia
[5] Never Want To Say It's Love by Dido
[6] Invisible City by The Wallflowers
[7] In The Mean Time by Spacehog
[8] On and On by The Longpigs

*Hope you enjoyed that!
*credit: butterfly image from andre alexis' book cover "childhood"

DINO AND SQUALO FST: LOVE LIKE ROCKETS

this pairing hit me out of nowhere. i suppose i could blame certain fan fic writers for it, but, yeah i guess i've always liked the idea of them being childhood friends and all. maybe there's also a fascination with gold and silver - as i fancy dino with gokudera as well XD like i said i love stirring the pairing pot. ah, it'd be foolish not to mention tongari's stories as a major proponent for this fascination. find her fics over at desertidal.

He had invested in this machine, a part of him had traveled with it. For the brief seconds that it flew he had felt less mortal, less earthbound, less dreary, less bowed by his day-to-day life. - Louise Wener, Musician/Novelist, from The Half Life Of Stars

Song List:
1] The Adventure by Angels and Airwaves
2] Ghosts Of You by Chantal Kreviazuk
3] Hysteria by Def Leppard
4] Generate by Collective Soul
5] Drop by Tinfed
6] Into The Fire by Thirteen Senses
7] Almost Happy by K's Choice
8] Here Is Gone by Goo Goo Dolls
9] Spaceman by 4 Non Blondes
10]Head Over Feet by Alanis Morisette
11] Love Like Rockets by Angels And Airwaves

*I guess it was only apt to end with the song where i got the title of this compilation from :) All files uploaded individually and hosted in Mediafire.

STRANGE ALLIES: A MUKURO AND HIBARI FST

i assembled this fst more than a year ago when i first got into the pairing. the original post can be found here, and this collection's been remixed almost three times already. this is the final mix and i do hope everyone will find a song that they like. excuse the souxsie and the banshees song. i can't help it! i always think of mukuro when i hear "the killing jar"

We're strange allies with warring hearts, What wild-eyed beast you be? The Space Between, The wicked lies we tell and hope to keep safe from the pain. Will I hold you again? Will I hold..." - Dave Matthews, Musician (from) The Space Between (song)

Song List:
1] Human Behavior by Bjork
2] The Space Between by Dave Matthews
3] No Ordinary Love by The Deftones (remake)
4] Vow by Garbage
5] We Could Be Kings by Gene
6] Be There by Ian Brown (with UNKLE)
7] Battleflag by Low Fidelity Allstars
8] Wide Open Space by Mansun
9] The Memory Remains by Metallica (with Mariane Faithful)
10] Infra-Red by Placebo
11] Leaving Las Vegas by Sheryl Crow
12] The Greatest View by Silverchair
13] The Killing Jar by Siouxsie and The Banshees
14] Everybody Wants To Rule The World by Tears for Fears
15] Where The Streets Have No Name by U2

All songs are uploaded individually and can be downloaded by accessing the link that leads to a Mediafire Folder, enjoy: CLICK HERE TO DOWNLOAD FILES

LOVE IS STRANGE: AN 8069 FAN SOUNDTRACK

this was born out of my own crazy selfishness. i'd been writing this band au where mukuro and yamamoto were guitarists with absolutely different playing styles, yet, they work well together. there's also a bit of love and ust going on there despite them having their respective relationships. god, i fucking love conflict. i also love stirring your pairing pots. just because.

We played together for so long and we got to the point where our styles blended together. Even today, sometimes I'll hear our records and I'm not really sure who played what. And we took a bunch of acid together too. - Wayne Kramer, guitarist of MC5 and Mudhoney

Song List:
1] Coffee and Cigarettes by Augustana
2] No Ordinary Morning by Chicane
3] Happy Alone by Earlimart
4] Time by Hootie and The Blowfish
5] Love Is Strange by Leona Naess
6] When The Dolphins Cry by Live
7] Just Like A Pill by Pink
8] Without You Feels by Seven Mary Three
9] When I Look To The Sky by Train
10] Fall To Pieces by Velvet Revolver

All songs are uploaded individually and can be downloaded by accessing the link that leads to a Mediafire Folder, enjoy: CLICK HERE TO DOWNLOAD FILES

HANDS AND HEARTS; FOR TSUNA AND SPANNER W/ LOVE.

this fst came from a fan fic that morphaileffect made for my birthday last october 2008. it was one of those fics that had me thinking...this pairing has me enamored limbs and body parts :D and it's probably the one written fic that just nails the pairing as i see them in my head. i love it. and i think this collection does not justify how marvelous it is. read the piece.

"When we talk about understanding, surely it takes place only when the mind listens completely-- the mind being your heart, your nerves, your ears- when you give your whole attention to it." - J. Krishnamurti, philosphical author

Song List:
1] Krafty by New Order
2] On Your Own by Blur
3] Put Your Arms Around Me by Texas
4] Lovers In A Dangerous Time by Barenaked Ladies
5] It's Okay To Think About Ending by Earlimart
6] Here's To The Night by Eve 6
7] Heart and Shoulder by Heather Nova
8] Into Your Arms by The Lemonheads
9] So Little Time by Arcana
10] Vindicated by Dashboard Confessional

All songs are uploaded individually and can be downloaded by accessing the link that leads to a Mediafire Folder, enjoy: CLICK HERE TO DOWNLOAD FILES

ANTHOLOGY: MUKURO AND HIBARI, SIDES

this compilation was a joint project, completed with the help and expertise of asael. it was originally for the mukuro/hibari anthology that never really did happen. so the fst had to go somewhere, right? the original post can be found in firetrees with cover art (not used HERE) done by my good friend, good_chaser ♥

“It's like we took our aggressions and shaped something positive from them in a very direct manner... the two quiet songs could be our best attempts yet at pulling the disguises off of loss of life, and even love.” - Eddie Vedder, Musician/Singer for Pearl Jam

Song List:
1] Dead From The Waist Down by Catatonia
2] War by The Cardigans
3] Dance Of The Seven Veils by Liz Phair
4] Every Me And Every You by Placebo
5] Intermission by Scissor Sisters
6] Splinter by Sneaker Pimps
7] Benefits Of Lying (with your friends) by The Apples In Stereo
8] My Favorite Game by The Cardigans
9] Road Rage by Catatonia
10] Sleep Together by Garbage

All songs are uploaded individually and can be downloaded by accessing the link that leads to a Mediafire Folder, enjoy: CLICK HERE TO DOWNLOAD FILES